Ben | Barnes

So I know in my previous post I talked about how all my friendships and such are fake now but I’ve found that to be false in these past few weeks. I’ve had one friend that I’ve been on and off with for my past 3 years of highschool. Tonight I had to say goodbye for the next 5 months probably. I know its not the end of the world or anything, but I guess I haven’t been this attached to anyone for a long while. Right now I am listening to wash by bon iver. I keep thinking about past memories with this person and how I used to love so much more then I do now. Its weird. In a sense I almost feel like what I’m feeling now is similar to what I used to feel but I never really realized how much I liked it till it was gone. Confusing I know. Sounds better in my head. I’m not in love, just attached. Until I see you next time, much love.

Things will be so different one day. Now I watch and wait as they blindly change in front of my eyes.